Twisted Little Daydreams

New and Testy

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 03:38:05 GMT

Okies, so, New Journal over at " Classicdestiny " so add me if you want or not, its friends only though. This will be for Tests and things now i guess. Cus i dotn wanna dump it, but oh well. Anyhow... A test.

Your soul is bound to the Seventh Totem,
Pandora: The Spider.

Pandora appears as an amethyst spider. She
embodies creativity, imagination, craft, and
virtuosity. She is associated with the
color amethyst, the season of autumn, and the
element of wind. Her downfall is daydreaming.

You are most compatible with Tortoises and
Cockroaches.

Which Animal Spirit Totem Are You?
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Winded Rant.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 08:26:56 GMT

I feel icky again.

Gonna Rant for a bit. Please ignore it as it’s just stupid.
(damn, that intro now makes me wanan watch Star Wars again... anyhow...

I’ve been ignoring things again.

I’ve slipped back into not doing anything again. I know I was just there but I thought I pulled myself out. The smallest things hurt again, like it’s a personal attack or some stupid shit like that. I don’t know.

Can’t take living here. It’s a mess. I ay I have no one here in town but I hide form Jeannie for some reason. Ha, haven’t even seen her since LA. How sad. I haven’t talked to Julie in weeks, and the last time I talked to Stephie I felt so bad. Kat’s mad at me, I know she is. It’s stupid, I was crying today again thinking of her. I know I hurt her some how. Or annoyed her. Maybe just pissed her off. Not sure. I miss the e-mails and the texting back and forth. I did something that stopped that... I’m just not that good a person. I’ve slow all contact with Shawn for about a year now, which is really STUPID because I see him online all the time on a hidden name. I feel like I stalk him cus I can see him on but he can’t see me. Dade!Steve, Rag!Steve and Nato!Steve... all three of them I seem too have stopped talking to as well. Vid? Fuck, he was like a brother, and I can’t even find him anymore. I don’t even talk to people in my DeviantArt Galleries anymore. Greg, lords, I do him wrong on a daily rate. He’s the only one of the old group worried enough to actually CALL me just to “See how ya doing”. Seriously, I think I sat there and cried when I heard his phone message. That’s how dumb I am. I started talking to Erin again, and right now she's the only one I feel safe to talk to. Which sounds reallllllllly stupid cus I WANT to talk to the others, but now that it’s been forever I feel stupid just randomly saying “hi!”

I feel angsty as hell. Like a stupid teen or something. There are only a few things holding me together right now.

1) Saving up money to go to Vancouver for X-mas, because I hate being here for X-mas. HATE IT. And I have a friend up there who might be alone, so... gonna go see her. Hopefully.
2) Its stupid, but just sitting here pretending to be more active and productive in making something for AX next year, and fuck, I don’t even know if I’m GOING. But I want to, and so I’ll pretend that it’s going to happen, so I have something to do.
3) Rereading stupid OLD e-mails from my Soul Sister about moving out together and rooming somewhere. LA? San Francisco? Seattle? Anywhere? (I think I fucked this one up, but oh well... I’m still going to pretend I haven’t just yet)
4) the fact that I just got raised up to 13 dollars an hour for a fucking shit ass job. But I wont complain. I have one at least.

I feel sick again. I’ve had this headache for almost non stop for a few days. My monitor is so dim right now. I’m a little scared but then again not phased by the fact that the other day I think I passed out on the living room floor and didn’t realize it at all. (I got written up for being a hour late to work that day too. -.-; fuckers. Lack of blood, a headache and passing out don’t count for excused! DEAD counts for excused. Fuck that, next week I’ll call in dead.) Anyhow... so, that’s my 3rd write up. They should be firing me any day, but I doubt it. They don’t do shit like that or something. What ever.

I hate my job, and yet its so simple, easy as fuck, I get to draw all I want, and kick back for a few hours doing nothing. What’s not to like? Besides the weather the sun the people I work with and other annoying things. Dan’s leaving for at least 3 months, which sucks... cus he’s cool. Gina and Ronda are leaving for good. I have people at work who just WONT SUUT UP! Omg... I just wanna kill them. Oh and SOMEONE FUCKING STOLE MY BINDER OF DRAWINGS *sobs*. That annoys me to no end. It was a new one, so it didn’t have a LOT to it, but I had at last 15 images I really liked. Never got any scanned either.

Speaking of drawings, I’ve gotten behind on my deviant art account. Which sadly isn’t paid for anymore. So it sucks. And my Card wont work online anymore cus of theft restrictions. Fuckers. Oh, speaking of Fuckers. I came home yesterday and found a package I sent to a friend ripped up and saying it cant be mailed. WTF? The letter inside is all torn and bent and I don’t even know what happened to it. But I’m sure she's mad at me for not sending THAT on time either. I sent it WEEKS ago. The Mail man who returned it though, he’s pretty cool. I get to resend it for Free. I just gotta get the time to... well SEND it again. Post office’s and their horrible hours. I’m so horrible about mailing things. -.-;

Random note: I’ve got a few new CDs. Thanks to Jennie I was hooked on Buffy the Musical. Got that finaly. I also picked up Rent (AWESOME, can’t wait t o see the movie haha), and the nightmare before X-mas soundtrack too. And Wicked. Man I really wanted to see that something bad. I mean I was even planning on sleeping at the train station in order to go see it. But house bills struck, and for some reason I had to put in more then my share, and I was broke.... until the day AFTER the show moved to the next city. I am SO tempted to fly to Toronto just to see it. Damnit. Hooked.

Also, a CD that I’ve nearly played out, a gift, The Everglow, by Mae (I think is peleld that right). OMG I love it so badly. I play it every night when I go to bed. Kind a helps I think. A beautiful person gave it to me and I cant thank her enough really. I’ve found, unless It’s a really bad night, that it helps me though some of the dreams. So cool.

The kittens are the best. Alphonse and Winry, after the Full Metal Alchemist Characters. They fit the characters well. Speaking of FMA> I HATE THE FUCKING ENDING OMG CRY!.... okeis done. Though on the Anime subject, I just finished reading Juvenile Orion. That’s........ really cute. Haha. I liked it. And Antique Bakery. I think that’s what it was called. Book 1 is in English only so far I guess. It’s rather cute. Slashy but that’s okies, I still like it.

Bah, talking at random isn’t helping much anymore. I still feel sick. I wanna be sadistic to my Role Play Characters. I wanna continue RPing in my Naruto game, but I don’t think the other player wants to play anymore. And I feel bad cus I haven’t been as good to the other games I DO love, I just... .feel left out of. And then theres Hogwarts and Beyond, which I just feel shitty for because I DO want to play, but I feel like a spear tire there at times. And Random... thank god for Erin and her morbid love of torture. If it wasn’t for her right now I think I would do something stupider then I already have done. I just with I could RP more with Laura there, and Steve. I miss Kari randomly, and Julie and Stephie. I miss the old days. GAH, yes, stopping the random shit now.

And none of that made sense huh.

I died my hair black! It has a red streak in it now.

And not that you need to know this (or that anyone will read this far anyhow) but I have mysteries cramps and I wish they and the headache would go away.

I wish it would rain.

I Miss Rain as well. And Natasha and Jeannie and Na-chan, and Des and Netto and Wilder, and Mika, and very basically everyone.

Yo, Shivering Sheep... I’m so damend bored in my head and in such a horrible mood that I actually think I wouldn’t mind going back to Michael’s to be stocked by Michael’s Guy again. How sad, yes? Or glomped by the Moogle... (Still can’t believe a Moogle hit on me at that Dance).

What ever. Fuck, rambling. I need to go do something. I should check E-mails. Maybe she wrote me back. Prolly not.

Going to have a new journal I think. Friends only though. So if you wanna know what it is, or if you wanna read it, ask, I’ll add you if I haven’t already. Otherwise... I’ll use this as well, but I don’t know.

Anyhow, End Rant. *huffs* Wish it helped.
Tori

Defying Gravity

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 05:47:19 GMT

Wow, go me for never updating. I swear. Anyhow, the kittens are gone now. (oh look, it seems like I only just posted that they were here, huh! Haha). But yeah, it was time. Tonks is gone too, sadly. She gave me a gut shot that had to be held together by butterfly Band-Aids. X.x lil bitch.

Anyhow, they all got good homes, and we kept Two. Oh man, they are so cute! Alphonse and Yondaime! One name from two of my Fav Animes so far. Alphonse is the biggest of the little, and a sweet heart. *-* and Yondaime (People call them Al and Daime ) is a brave lil one. She’s so awesome. 4th of the little born :D

Anyhow they are adorable.

I spent too much money this weekend. Sadly. I got some movies, and some CDs I wanted. And some new books.

I’ve been in a odd mood lately. I don’t wanna write anything, I have like 1000 emails to go though, my deviant art is so backed up that its not even FUNNY. All I want to do is chat with a few people online, reply to RPs, and draw. Not to mention sleep. For a change I –want- to sleep. I’ll even sleep with the mind that “he” will be there again, but I don’t much care. I’m tired.

More on that in my other journal for myself. So what ever. I've been talking to Erin again. That's been really nice. Missed her loads. but i'm not gonna ramble on here. I guess I’ll end this journal with a segment of lyrics from a son I have stuck in my head.

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Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

~ Excerpt from: Wicked - Defying Gravity

Love!
Red

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 09:29:45 GMT

Got my BooK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dude, I was right o n so many things and i've not even read too far yet. xD I love that feeling. But first, i wont name names, but one of my FAV ships is TRUE *dances. fist pump* or so i gather from a few lines near the back of the book as i am HORRABLE and alwasy check out the last page or three. *coughs* and its not whoo you might htink i was thinking (unless you knwo me will and my obsessions) xD

and yes, i'll shut up. thuis wasn't a spoiler i am sure. OMG my OTP!!! *is a happy lil bird now*

KITTEN UPDATE:
Godaime (the 5th kitten born, the one under my desk that night?) is a loner >.

KITTENS KITTENS KITTENS!!

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 07:25:02 GMT

KITTENS!! Born July 14th 12:12

4 of them so far! Just born like... JUST now! I'm sitting here at my computer and i hear a Mew! and I was liek WTF? and looekd around and.... KITTENS! i saw 3 of them, but hten something was moving under the plastic they were born on, and there was a 4th black one! Momma Kitty looks like she can pop a few more. Which worries me as shes sitting here on the pillow under my computer lickign herself. ........ PLEASE Tonks don't have your brats here under my computer. Anyhow, i hope it's only four of em. x.x

I'm worried that Poppa kitty wil leat them Stupid boy. Whats funny about it all is that my girl, Tonks is her name. The boy? We naemd him Moony. So in reality, Moony and Tonks jsut had 4 (so far) Cubs! or ewll Kittens but shh.MoonyxTonks is one of my fav ships. xD

so now i needa read up on kittens x.x! gah, Anyoen want one xD ?

Oiy, Tonks is a bloody mess x.x ewww

EDIT: 5th Babie born at 12:47 UNDER MY DAMN BLASTED COMPUTER *grrrrrrrrr, upset* stupid Wench Tonks! my foot pillow thingy is nasty now ;.; and i have a baby under foot! *scared, cries* UNDERFOOT!!!

home again home again....

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 02:56:44 GMT

I am home. not that it matters. ^_^;

The con was great, lots of fun. The trip was good, the flight was fun, seeing my friends was truely priceless. And comming home to HOT as Fuck weather just helped me decide that i wanna move to LA now x.x how sad, no?

Leaving on a Jet Pl---- haha

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 09:51:45 GMT

Okies all! Not that i ever update anymore anyhow but in case anyone cares i will be leaving! Headed to LA! The Expo is in a week and i am officaly on VACATION! YEAH!!!!!!!! cant wait *-*!

Anyhow, loves to you all!

Tori-bear

An Angle and From Fisrt to Last!

Wed, 25 May 2005 08:31:27 GMT

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!! I am so upset! I completely forgot that Kris was playing at Old Ironsides tonight! (well it was last night the 25th but anyhow). J-zuse! I had wanted to g o to that badly too! Dude… check them out, k? http://www.ananglemusic.com/ AWESOME group :D *loves* Indie Rock group from CA. An Angle is the name of the band. Awesome, awesome. They just got their first CD put out, and I’m looking forward to getting it!... *cracks fingers* Pay day is Thursday. Woot. I know, I said I was saving up damnit, for the AX, but still… I want the CD. *sniffles* I wont get to see them play for a while *cries* The next stop is Salt Lake City UT. ;.;

Me = Sad. ;.;

On a completely different note (well not really) I’m growing more and more so attached to “From First to Last”. An LA band that I stumbled over. I kinda really like em ^_^;; but yeah anyhow…. That’s all I’ll babble about for now. I really should go g et some sleep. I feel like Spoot or worse. Oh well. *plays Note to Self over again*

AH, LOVE

Thu, 19 May 2005 10:18:22 GMT

I have returend home from... THE MOVIE... i will not give any spoilers at all right now, other then the fact that the damend movie broke my heart a 1000 times over. It is SO much better then Eps. 1 and 2. And it has renewed my faith in the Star Wars universe. I also understand the Bumping up in the Rating thing. It was.... jsut... Wow. There are NO words to discribe it for me. NO words. The CGing has improved, but still not as great as it SHOULD be (as ocne i na while you can pick out the damend CGed moves, liek Legolas trick jumping on his pony? yeha liek that). There was no annoyign side Kick babbling on (yeah! no Binks... sorta). And it Tied EVERYTHING up nicely.

Needless to say i'm seeing it agian veyr soon. -- Oh, back to CG department. i DO have to say they uimproved on their Yoda a bit. his walk was more realistic. after a while he fit in, in my head at least.

Lords knows i am a huge dork... the Opening STAR WARS logo opens, and i began to cry. x.x It's so sad... this coudl veyr well possibaly be the end of the movies. If it is, then Hallujah, it went out with a Bang. I was worried it would leave unanswered questiosn that even the Original three movies woudln't answer, but George, hats off to you! You did a splended job. i don't think i have any questions at all. AKA it tied up the series VERY well!

But... I am still, and will always be, a Die Hard Fan of the Originals.

-.-;

Sat, 07 May 2005 06:03:40 GMT

In case anyone cares to know, wants to know or was wondering. I’m not around. Or, I am but not really. I think I’ve been sick. I don’t know what I am doing anymore. I sit here on the computer, looking at it and just go BLAH. And I stare at it, and just…. Eh. Stare. Those I was close to faded off to someplace else, became too busy with work, or are playing Online games and can’t be bothered. Commitments I made in games I’ve ignored and more then likely lost. And… I just don’t know. I sound melodramatic I know, I just… I just don’t feel well. It’s taken everything to just get online now a days.

After I work some shit out things will be better, I am sure. I know I’ve been saying that for a month now and been gone like that long too, but yeah… a little longer. I just need a little longer. I’m so, so sorry. I know I’ve hurt a few people, and I know a lot don’t really care anymore cus of things that have been said and done… but yeah… just a little longer.

Must get my head clear.

Short Update Before Bed

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 10:59:34 GMT

Oiy. i'm wiped out. So t ired but can't get to sleep. Though i am going to try now, as i can barely type anymore. Eyes crossing.

Anyhow, Updated on old Hag Woman Gran:

Shes still in the Hospital. They are doing a shit load of tests on her. She was -really- hungry as hell last night, around dinner. they gave her some icky looking chicken and potatos and it jsut looekd baaaaaaaad. but she was hungery enough that she inhailed it basicaly. ick. gone in a moment. Oh and some cole Slaw. Which reminds me, ever wonder where the name came from? Cole Slaw. I mean, did the Chef say "'Ere's ya Col' Sla'" as he slapped osme down on some poor guys plate, and hte guy was like "Cole Slaw?" and the Chef was all "Noooo! Col' Sla'! Col' Sla'!" and the poor guy was like "Um... yeah... cole... Slaw....*blinks*" and the Chef prolly thwacked the guy in the head with a ladel full of the crap saying clearly. "NO! Its COld SLOP! Cold Sla'! Col' Sla!" and jsut repeateadidaly hit the guy on the head.

Yeah...

Need bed. x.x Anyhow. she appears to be doing Alright. going to be d now so i can get some sleep before going over to see her again tomorrow.

Another evil note: ....... Aunt Linda will be here Monday. x.x "JOY!" feel my giddyness? yeah, thought so.

Night.

Why i had Friday off:

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 05:10:12 GMT

The day at a run down:

Woke up by a histerical mother telling me “Shes Not breathing right! OMG shes dieing! I thought it was the cat hacking a hair ball! Wake up! Get up! OhMyGod Shes Dieing Cry, Slober, Blubber, Sob, Heave, so on”. So yeah, I’m up and thinking “WTF?”

So me? Me = NOT A MORNING PERSON (and little do I know its 7 AM). So I grumble and get up asking “Huh?” and mum is crying still saying “Your GRANDMOTHER! Shes not breathing right!”

….. Fuck.

So I go in a hurry to her room, not even sure what the fuck is up, and telling mum to call 911, cus it seemed logical! Ya know? She should have done that before she woke me,. I mean WTF? Anyhow. So she’s getting the phone. . . Me? I’m going to their room (as they share one, so she can keep an eye on the old woman) and I hear this horrible buzzsaw sound coming from Gran. She’s in the middle of having a fucking Seizure I think! I check her out, not her Jaw is clenched tightly, her mouth is dribbling blood, and her hands are cold and limp. Okies… talk about scaring the fuck out of me. X.x I can understand why mum panicked. But yeah she called 911, and they were… well fast. But that might be cus I live 5 seconds behind a Fire house. Rock on for LocatioN!

So the hot motherbrothers form the FireDepartment crash in, dance on through, and check her out. “Stroke!” they Say. “OMG” I think. They take care of her. Mums sniffling standing behind, giving info and shit. Me? I’m the logical one calling Mums sister and Brothers. Letting them know what’s up and where they are taking her.

Now an interesting fact. Our Apartment is small, the hall si cramped. The room is cramped. So…. No gerny inside the house. Stretcher!! Haha…… no. They couldn’t get her OUT of the room in the conventional way. So what do they do? Take her sheets off and body bag heft her out. (lmfao I know I shouldn’t laugh cus OMG it was SO not funny at that time, but I was impressed and find it amusing now.)

Anyhow. SO they go, and tell mum to not rush after them. Calm down first, and he was all “She’s in good hands. She will be fine. Just get a hold of things here first, then fallow, alright?” I was like “awwwww dude you rule” in my head, cus he was the only compassionate soul there, though he was prolly like “Fuck man, another crying biotch.” But what ever.

So. Order mum to eat something (cus she gets sick if she doesn’t, and when stressed like that I was scared she was gonna pass out while driving to the Hospital). And thus around 7:40 we are out.

Oh, side note: WHILE I was calling the aunts and uncles, I called into work (mind you I still had no idea what time it was really) and said to the Sarge “I’m not coming in. My grandmother is having a stroke. Find someone else please.” What does he say? “Hmm… I don’t know if we can. Might be hard.” So what ever. I think im gonna get written up c us I didn’t call in 14 hours ahead of time. Fuck it. This was more important.

Whatever…

Anyhow. SO we get to the Hospital around 8:20. Uncle Vern, Aunt Carol and Uncle Bob are already there. Bob is in WITH Gran now, though that took for ever to arrange. They didn’t want to let him in cus, uyes he was her son, but he didn’t live with her. WTF? Anyhow. So we sat there for ages. And he came out, saying that she was talking now and shit. and awake and alert.

She was unconscious for the whole time. When I got to go in and see her (around Noon, which btw it took forever to get ME in to seem them. The arseholes) she said that she woke up and was…. Here! So she was disturbed. She didn’t understand why she had a tube up her nose or needles in her arms or why she was naked in a bed with blankets over her… (Though I was amused, she was really upset that they cut her Butterfly nightgown. ;.; So mum and I are going out tomorrow and get her a new one as it was just recently a gift and she only got to wear it like once or twice. Poor dear.)

Anyhow, I asked hwo she was feeling, and she shook her head, saying she was thirsty. (She said that wrong, so I know she wasn’t doing well. Explained later…). SO I tried tracking down someone to get her water. I finaly grabbed a guy and asked if I could just get some water for her. He was like “Talk to her Nurse. Shes the one in the black shirt.” GAH. Ass.

So I look for the black shirt. Of course there are three of them in black shirts today. X.x…. but I found her. She was the one with the teddy bear and peace signs patterned doctors smock pants and the bunny slippers. ( OOOoooooooooookay. WTF?) so I grab her and ask HER for water! The Poor old woman has a oxygen tank on her drying her out badly. She wants water! “Oh. Well I’ll get to that after I prep this room first.” And runs off. Bitch.

10 minutes later she runs by again.

5 Minutes after that she’s sitting at a desk, chatting with another nurse, giggling and looking over something. “Um…. Excuse me? Can we PLEASE get some water?” “Oh sure. One moment. *Turns back to me, talks to the nurse again* “ OMG WTF? So I’m pissed now. Gran is whining cus she’s really tired now and wants to sleep but she’s –really- thirsty. I wanna go out to my backpack and get my water bottle. But t hen I wouldn’t be able to return! I would have called the ones standing outside to bring it to the door so I could sneak it in, but one, they had my Cell phone, and two… Cell Phones past the Emergency Door point are prohibited. As they cause Computer Malfunctions. X.x

Anyhow, long story short (TOO LATE!) I got the hag to get Gran some, water. And then left her to rest. Around 6 they got her a room finally for her few day stay… and around 7 Mum and I returned home. Gah. I got like 2 hours sleep last night. This all sucks.

ANYHOW… they said she would be fine, and we are heading over there tomorrow to see her instead of going to Karin’s Wedding. Not that I mind. Anyhow

So that was my Friday.
Tori

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 11:21:36 GMT

My keyboard has a dent in it. That is annoying.

Things are changing. I don’t even feel like signing on AIM much anymore. X.x I have a few games and things I wanna try and get back into and keep up with, and I have a few other special things I have been keeping up with, but other then that, I’ve felt no reason anymore to sign on. I’m told often that I was missed and oh how we should do this or do that or what ever, and then the IM goes silent, or they become too busy (and yes, I’m not singling out anyone, as it happens a lot with several different people, so as a general rule of thumb, don’t assume its you, as I DO know more then one or two people).

I just… I get tired of being the only one told to shut up. I get tired of being told I was missed and then ignored. What? So I’m online so things are normal so that’s good, you don’t need to worry anymore so why bother talking? Eh.

Maybe I’m just in a foul mood is all. Eh. I’ve gotten a lot of drawing done (You can do that with one arm you know) and some of its not that bad. A lot of its Naruto involved. But eh. http://redlionspride.deviantart.com/ you can see it all there at my DevArt account if anyone is interested. Anyhow. What else.

Blah, I’m tired and hurt, so I’m not gonna rant too much more, like I normally do. Not like anyone is going to really read this anyhow, and if you do, thanks, that’s really spiffy, but eh, there was no point, so apologies for wasting your minute or two.

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 10:40:24 GMT

Yeah, so, growing addicted to Naruto, and with good reason. Also addicting many others with me lately. . . even my mother. wow. Scared now.

And with that i am going ot bed, as... i hurt. night.

01. Dye your hair blonde and try to walk up a tree. My hair is already blonde though xD
02. Live by a strict diet of only ramen. for a while I was. xD
03. Call your semester examine a chuunin exam. that and work
04. Trade in your favorite hat for a forehead protector. Oh yeah baby! Sure did!
05. Roll your eyes back in your head and shout “byakugan”. Done that.!
06. Copy every thing a person does and claim it’s your bloodline. Did that just now… woooot
07. Stay up all night waiting for the release of the next manga chapter. Weekly. With religion.
08. Start adding the words chan and kan on the end of your friends names. Done that for ages.
09. Paste a piece of paper that says come come paradise on the front of adult books. …… (Hmm, well not exactly, but I have a Book cover thingy that I painted Come Come Paridice on with the No sign on the back xD)
10. Jump off a cliff and attempt to use Kuchiyose No Jutsu to summon the toad king.
11. Keep all your money in a frog shaped wallet. I do now. xD and OMG my friend has a REAL Frog wallet! Real Frog, I swear. ewwwww
12. Memorize the 64 points of Ninpou.
13. Stick your hand in a electric box and scream “chidori” as you pass out.
14. Join a website and use the name Neji as your s/n. I used Tsunade. xD
15. Start to call your teachers Sennin. I only have two teachers now though xD
16. Claim your going to kill your best friend so you can have a better Sharigan.
17. Sit in your local book store and read the manga all day. !!!!!!!!!
18. When someone ask you who your dream girl is and you say Ino. (Psst. Tsunade or Sakura. Not that Ino Pig. xD *loves Ino too* )
19. Agree to stay up and write this list so you can be added to the staff of Naruto Central.
20. Spend your week searching down Naruto sites. Ha, just recently too xD
21. Refuse a date because your saving yourself for Sakura.
22. Graduate high school and proclaim yourself as an Anbu. YEAH BABY!
23. Cry at the flash back scenes of Sasuke’s family. … whats wrong with that? *sniffs*
24. Try to hit Itachi through the screen when he tortures Sasuke. GAH you know it! And it hurt too! :O
25. Put a picture of Hinata in your wallet and tell your friends it’s your girlfriend.
26. List Anbu as current occupation on a job application. You know its going to be on my résumé now. xD
27. Can spout out a random character quote on command. wow I’m bad…
28. Draw symbols on a scroll and try to seal a whole in a wall with it
29. Sneak around and try to beat your grand father.
30. Wake up in the middle of the night and scream “Ttachi why?!?!”
31. Eat all day and all night, and then try to roll into a ball and run someone down. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA -- no
32. Get bit by a snake and decide stabbing the wound is a good idea.
33. Read manga 24 hrs non stop just so u can read more.
34. Decide that if u can’t hit a tree 1500 times then You’ll jump rope 1500 times.
35. Decide to call your moral code your “ninja way”. Amen to that…..

It’s my Ninja way…..

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and i'm not a Perv........ all the time. xD

HAHAHA Jiraiya was a Hufflepuff xD

Amusment!

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 11:23:24 GMT

This kind of amused me to hell. xD

If I were God over LiveJournal... by shinikami
Username
Jesus would be	scarah2
The four archangels would be	froggymcgee
and	halogirl8
and	gothboiblinkie
and	joannablack
The Blessed Virgin would be	foxing
Satan would be	green_and_warty
The antichrist would be	sleepyjeans
And YOU would be	Dead

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Tue, 08 Mar 2005 11:17:11 GMT

SHES SO CUTE!!

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
What you Look like
The Music	There No Music, You'r just Hyper

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Sat, 26 Feb 2005 13:06:20 GMT

I’m so tired of being the one that everyone –says- they love but no one seems to show it. At home and on the net and in a few games and just everywhere. I’m so tired of the “<3”s that hold no meaning now or the “*hugs*” that have become some automatic that now they don’t even represent a hug mentally. Its just a way of showing a fake emotion. No one really cares that much. I want to be selfish of a change and NOT feel guilty for it, like I have felt for the past lords knows how long. I want to do something fun for a change and NOT feel guilty like I’m forcing the other person or people into having to do what ever it is. I don’t want to feel guilty anymore for anything. I want to just quit. Go away. Fade out of existence for a change.

I want to feel better and not sit here in a burst of tears every night as I feel my self worth dwindle away even more. As I feel like a spare tire or a 5th wheel just hanging around for the ride but ignored all at once. And I know people are going to read this and are going to be either upset or feel guilty and you don’t even know if I’m meaning you or not. NO, I’ve felt this way in many places lately. Not just here. It’s like one great big huge conspiracy against me or something, trying to make me feel like shit or something. It’s horrible, I wish I can fade away, and yet that’s the last thing I want to do. I just want to be wanted.

Is it because I am in this mood and have these feelings that seem to push people even further away from me? And the further away they go the more annoyed and sad and angry I get. In the many RP games I am in, I feel unwelcome in them, like they only tolerate me being there but they really don’t care. I’m not worth it. In a Art page I HAD been working on, they replaced me with out word! Did they not care either? I lost my will to draw now it feels. I try, but I just star at the paper now. At home, I see the folks here like once in the evening, and then a few times for midnight crapper trips to the Jon. Then in the morning before work. That’s it. Hardly a word spoken anywhere. I get to work, and its nothing but grief, fuckshit man, they shorted me 300 bucks on my pay check. Which they said they would pay me again…. In a week, after the paper work is done. Fucker, I need that money NOW.
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So tired of being unwanted.

So tired of feeling guilty.

So tired of feeling like I have false friends, and I really wish that weren’t true, that they are true, the very few I have. I don’t want to BE like my mother who has no friends at ALL. I don’t want to live here for all my life. And right now I just don’t even want to live. But don’t worry, It’s not like I would try anything even more stupid then I already am. I may have a shit load of suicidal thoughts but I wouldn’t ever go through with it. No, not at all, I’ll just sit here and let the images run through my head like a TV, trying to see if I can find some kind of physical pain that would replace the mental pains.

I am just so tired. I think I need bed or something. Just wish I could sleep.

So tired.

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 12:20:54 GMT

Bands // Song Titles
Created by BourdiezFreak and taken 21901 times on bzoink!
Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:	Barenaked Ladies
Are you female or male:	I'll Be That Girl
Describe yourself:	It's Only Me (The Wizard of Magicland)
How do some people feel about you:	Never Do Anything
How do you feel about yourself:	I Live With It Every Day
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:	Alternative Girlfriend
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:	You Will Be Waiting
Describe where you want to be:	The Old Apartment
Describe what you want to be:	The King of Bedside Manor
Describe how you live:	This Is Where It Ends
Describe how you love:	Break You Heart
Share a few words of wisdom:	Everything Old Is New Again -and- Thanks That Was Fun
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HA! Oh yeah... xD

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 06:22:57 GMT

Happy Birthday to ME. Ha... it's not been too bad really. Eh, more on this later when im not so busy.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA omg. rock on. xD

Katttt I love yoooooou

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 06:11:00 GMT

OHMYGOD! Kat! You are so awesome. Excuse me whiel i DIE now. OMG. *update later!*

Gah!

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 20:43:17 GMT

Frustratedddddddd Currently hating everything and almost everyone! And don’t take it personally either cus your prolly not even on the list.

Whoa......

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 20:37:43 GMT

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	nine
your best quality is	you give friends great advice
your worst quality is	nothing! you rock!
this is because	youre unique

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Thu, 20 Jan 2005 06:03:35 GMT

You scored as Ron Weasley. Your alter ego is Ronald Weasley. You often feel like second best and as a result don't have an awful lot of self confidence, but a truer more capable friend would be hard to find.

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Ron Weasley

75%

Harry Potter

70%

Severus Snape

70%

Remus Lupin

70%

Hermione Granger

60%

Draco Malfoy

55%

Sirius Black

50%

Lord Voldemort

40%

Albus Dumbledore

35%

Peter Pettigrew

25%

Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...?
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EDIT:
PurgaTori: I am 50% Sirius xD
PurgaTori: does that make me only Half Serious. xD

xD That was so bad. I'm sorry. xD

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 05:49:29 GMT

OhMyGod. Wanna hear the most fucked up funniest of fuck thing ever? xD Alright its not that funny but LORDS. xD

So I got up this morning, and was tired, annoyed, and SO didn’t wanna go to work today. I was slow getting ready and all. So yeah, I get dressed, and go to work, and spend ALL day there. It was cold so I wore my jacket most the say anyhow but anyhow! So before I leave tonight, I lock up, I’m the last one out. I unzipped my uniform shirt (I have a white shirt on under it.) and go to the car. And go home. As I’m like fucking sitting in the car, I’m feeling hella comfortable. I mean just “Woot! I must be home already” sorta comfortable! So I’m fiddling with my shirt, and we get home, and I get out of the car, stumble in, go to my room to change and BLAOW! I find that I just spent the entire day with out a bra. xD omg no wonder I was so comfy in my jacket today. Omg. xD So I am terribly amused, as normally I couldn’t imagine going out of the house to take trash out with out my bra, or a sports bra even. Nope. Today? Nothing.

Ha, yeah, I seem to be in a good mood at least. Someone please tell me I'm not the ONLY one who has even done this? Gone all day with out even realizing it till they got home? omg. xD

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 11:27:16 GMT

Yeah ya know it really sucks when you think your having a great night, and then someone rips open an old wound.